1,2,3,4.

"There's only one thing, to say,
Three words, and that's what I'll do..

I love you."

:) :) :)

That song was stuck in my head the whole day. It STILL is. Urgh.
Thanks to Shiva for bringing it up. Lol.


School today was boring. As always. =.=
I need someone to tell me to studyy. Something like "Joey Choo. Go study now." would be of help. I think.
Ahh. The stress.

Boooomberanggg! That's the word of the day. x) Started the day saying it till I annoyed a few ppl. Oh well. Nothing can bring me down these days. I'm literally on cloud nine. Which explains the number of smileys you're seeing on the post. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)




Just a short update to let you all know how I'm doing.

JC

Boom boom BANG!

It's time to study.

Ohh the fun! >.<
Haha.

Somebody saveee meeee from textbooks, workbooks and such.


Woke up feeling awesome this morning. Lalalalala!
Maybe cos I slept to the sound of Edward's Cullen voice last night. Thank God I have the movie in my iPod.

How nice to sleep to the sound of a voice more beautiful than an angel's.

Go try! It makes your day. Teehee.

:) :) :) :) :) :)
JC

Sports Day 2009

Anda cemerlang? Hermine menang!!

We won. AGAIN. Screamed and shouted like some mad woman but it was all worth it. My last sports day ended with a blast.

Credits to EACH AND EVERYONE who helped and contributed whether in cheer, marching, house deco, mascot, or whatever.
Our hard work paid off. It would have been the happiest day in my life if it weren’t for some unavoidable issues/problems. (It still feels like it never happened.)

But I will shut up and suck it up. Cos that’s what I’ve been told to do, so that’s what I’m gonna do.

Something to look forward to? Formula One in Shanghai, China. Mclaren Mercedes added a diffuser to their car. I really hope they do well.

I apologise if I sound too dead. I am just really tired of everything that’s been happening around me. I want to getaway.

I want to escape.



Upset, mourning, scared, excited, numb;
JC


p.s: This is not what you think it is. Don’t ask.

Rest In Peace

This is the murder confession we did in class as I promised.

"Can you keep a secret? I just commited a murder. Something I've never done. I've made a mess and my hands reeks of rust and salt. I saw her all alone, vulnerable, helpless. I knew I was breaking the law but I had to take the chance. This is the only way to stop my vengence. She had to pay the price. I buried her still body in my backyard. I made people believe she went missing. As I write this, I take one last look at my bloody hands and smile. Before I take my last bow, I want you to burn this note and keep quiet or you'll be next."

Scary huh?

JC

Boom!

Had a great day today! Despite the fact that I'm currently sick and sniffing like crazy, it was good.

Why in the world do I catch a cold AT LEAST once a month?
My memory cells (leucocytes) are definitely not working very efficiently.

Stupid pathogens/antigens/whatever it is that's making me sick.

Don't mind me, I just read my Biology text book. Explains the sudden use of scientific terms eh? Sorry darls, I haven't gone crazy yet - well, YET. :D


My English teacher/class teacher is definitely going to send us all to the counselor once she hears our very disturbing murder confession. Aiks. Lol.
Will post it up as soon as I get it from Woan. You'll feel pretty disturbed. At least I did. Reading it creeps me out. O.o


Till then,
Toodles!


Romeo take me, somewhere we can be alone,
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run,
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby just say yes.

:)

Coca cola!

I am currently feeling very high. Haha. Don't ask.
Talking to both Justins now. They're just so funny.


Makes your day. Really.


Anyway, Happy Easter everyone!



JC

Confused

I don't know what to feel.

I don't know what to say.

I don't know what to do.

I don't feel quite myself.

You know how I always say I hate hypocrites? I'm starting to not like myself very much. Enough said.

Woke up feeling a little emo today. Urgh.

Why mee??

You promised you wouldn't. But I feel it coming. Already.

Don't mind me, I'm just being slightly emo. A phase every teenager goes through.

I will now drown myself in my History text book. History. How fascinating. Why must we learn it anyway? We're bringing up the NOT SO BRILLIANT past. Why educate us on that? I hate the past. Haunts me all the time. I say we should just have a subject on our country's independance if they want us to know abt it. And that is it. Not all the Europe and Madinah stuff. (No offence)

Every tiny bit of everything is like trying to annoy the crap out of me. The phone ringing, lights blinking, etc.

I need to breath.

I need yoga.

I need a holiday, preferably near a beach where I can relax to the sound of the waves as it hits the rocks. And the sound of coconut trees swaying with wind. Unwind under the blazing hot sun, sip a glass of cocktail and just leave the world. The cruel, busy, materialistic world.

I want to live in Venus. I shall marry an astronaut then. He'll take me there.

I need to think. The clock is ticking. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

I'm running out of time. I think I'm loosing it.

I quote Shiva, "I am a tree, so breath."

JC

Friends - The best thing in life to have. :)

BETTER IN TIME
by Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

=)

**copyrighted from Meli's blog and Woan's blog. Haha. I had nothing better to do. Plus, it's a pretty nice song.
I'm really sorry my dear Alwin Yeow. Haha. I really am. You'll be nicee and forgive your WONDERFUL friend over here rightttttt?? :D

Taa everyone!

Poker Face

"Can't read my, can't read my,
No he can't read my poker face."

As Bella looks at herself in the mirror, she felt uneasy. Weird. She's been wearing a mask all these while, she could hardly recognise herself. Living life everyday knowing that there's a chance of loosing 'him' kills her. Literally. The pain in her heart is agonizing. It felt like her heart was being stabbed several times at once. The insecurity drives her insane.

But what can she do but pretend that everything is alright? So there she goes. Living her life like this for the past couple of years.
She's so used to lying that now, it just seems natural. So natural and normal that she doesn't even remember the truth. She doesn't KNOW the true her.

Great. She's not only lying to the world, she's even lying to herself.

She's so tempted to admit how she trully feels. So that everyone would understand. And most importantly, so that 'he' would understand.

But she knows she can't. Having to admit it would break the spell. Everything would go all wrong - not like it hasn't already.

Her telephone rings. As she ran across the room to answer, she can't help but hope that it was him on the other line.

"Hello?" She asked breathlessly.
"Hi there," answered a beautiful voice. More beautiful than an angel's.
"Edward!"
"*Laughs* Yes. It's me. How have you been?"
"*pauses* I'm good. REALLY GOOD. I missed you."
"I'm that, multiplied by a hundred. Let's go out. I have something important to tell you"
"Sure. Meet you at our usual spot?"
"Alright. See you in ten!"

She was so excited she could hardly speak. She hasn't spoken to him for a while now. Having able to finally catch up with him was like a present from God.

Ten minutes felt like HOURS. She sat at the park waiting in anxiety. She glances around every 2 seconds hoping to see a glimpse of him. He was late. As always.

But she couldn't care less. Seeing him was all that mattered. 15 minutes later, she saw him. She was so happy. Overwhelmed with emotion. He was there now. In person. She didn't have to dream about him. Or to look at his photos. Not anymore. Because the person she cares most about is finally here. With her. Hugging her. And he looked beautiful. More beautiful than ever.

Being too occupied with the reunion, she didn't notice a figure standing not far away from them. There stood a lady. So beautiful, she could pass for a model. Standing, looking. Even by standing itself, she looked graceful. Bella pulled back. Confusion filled her mind.

"Who's that lady over there?"
"Oh! I'm so sorry about that. I completely forgotten why I came here."

He turned and called her name. No worse. Not her name.

"Darling, I would like you to meet my best friend, Bella"

Instantly, she felt like colapsing. Her body seemed to have stopped functioning. Her heart ached. She went limp. No words could come out of her mouth. But she knew she had to say something. She extends her hand.

"Hey. I'm Bella. Edward's best friend."

She struggled to control her tears. She wanted to run home. She wanted to sit around the house and mope all day. But she couldn't. So she fought to put up a smile. Lying her way through again. This was easy.

They sat at the park. Talking, catching up, kissing. Oh well, not the kissing. Well, not with her anyway.

A little over an hour later, she excused herself.
One hour she can take. More than that? Especially with all the kissing and public display of affection? She's rather shoot her self. In the head.

Months flew by. She hardly hears from him now. The days pass with her living her life like a corpse. Wait. Even a corpse look more alive.

A year later. She receives a call again.

"Hey Bella. Have you heard?"
"What is it?"
"It didn't work out between me and Tania"
"Ohh. How are you? Are you alright?"
"Yes, I'm fine. I need to see you. Urgently."
"Usual spot. In 10 minutes. Okay?"
"No problem"

Sitting there at the park was like Deja Vu. She wonders if he was going to introduce her to another girlfriend of his. She took a deep breath. She was going to have to prepare herself. Wouldn't want to have this little reunion ending at the hospital.

*Breaths*

"Bella!"

She saw him. She wanted to KILL herself. Seeing him still had that effect on her. Her heart beat accelerates. Her pulse quickens. But this time, there was no girl. She had him. All to herself. She was glad. At leats for that moment. The past year flew out the window. She couldn't remember them. All she knew was that he was there. And that's all that mattered to her then.

They talked. And talked. And talked. About everything. About nothing.

After filling each other about their lives, hers of course were mostly lies of her being happy, he suddenly became very serious.

"Bella, I have something very important to tell you. I've thought about this for a while now. I havve kept it in me for these past few years thinking that I would forget about it after awhile. But it hasn't. Bella, all this while, you've been there for me. When I was down, you took my hand and helped me up. When I was happy, you shared my joy. When i felt discourage, you motivated me. I would have never been the man that I am today without you. You knew me inside out. You took me for who I am. Accepted me. Even my bad qualities. Being with Tania made me realise something very important. I have been in love with you Bella. I always have. I just never noticed. Every single thing Tania did, I compared it to what you've done for me. And NOTHING could ever beat that. You were my pillars. And I know now that I love you. So much. With all my heart. You're the only one I cannot live without. .. I.. love.. you.. Bella." he stammered.

She looked at him. Tears filled her eyes.

She strugggled to answer him.

"You know, all these while, I've wanted to tell you the exact same thing. I have always loved you. And I always will."


Their lips met. And she felt whole. Complete. She didn't have to lie anymore.

From then on, she trully felt happy. She is now Bella. No more lies. She's free, happy and most importantly, in love.



Written by,
Joey C.


p.s: This is my personal version of Twilight. Written or should I say typed in 30 minutes. Lol. Quite cacat la but I like it. For a 30 minute spontanious essay, I'd say it's pretty good. Let me syok sendiri a bit lah :D

Attention!

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! :D

I am back!. Officially. Sorry to all for my past behaviour. I have been pretty rude to some of you. Trully sorry.


Hmmm.. maybe it's cos I practised piano today. I don't know. I feel LIGHTER. Already. :)


Lalalalalalalala!